So Addictive...

I throw all of your stuff away
Then I clear you out of my head
I tear you out of my heart
And ignore all your messages
I tell everyone we are through
Cause I'm so much better without you
But it's just another pretty lie
Cause I break down
Everytime you come around
O Oh O Oh

Damn that Shotaro.  It wasn't enough that he ruined my life.  And more so than normally.  He threw my chocolate for that stupid beagle under a car.  Now he's going to torment me.  If it wasn't for shotaro in the first place, I'd still be in Kyoto.  But no.  He had to ruin my life and my heart.  Even after I threw him away, nothing helped.  He still refused to leave my life.  What does he want from me?  There's no reason for him to be so angry over me being with Tsuruga-san is there?  But yet...whenever I see him,..memories of what we used to be come back.  It's....rather ridiculous isn't it?

So how did you get here
Under my skin?
I swore that I'd never let you back in
Should have known better
Than trying to let you go
Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you
Is so addictive
We're falling together
You'd think that by now I'd know
Cause here we go go go again

Growling softly, I ran my hand through my hair again.  Shoko was talking again...not that I was listening, probably accusing me of not listening to her again.  "I'm hungry."  Was all I said, looking up at her, smirking as she walked away.  The reason for me not paying attention?  As much as I don't want to admit it.  It's her.  The same girl I threw away because she was so plain.  I could have sworn I said I'd never let her back in.  There's something about her now...I can't let her go.  Every time I think about her with Tsuruga...Or worse...that beagle.  I growled softly, noticing with disdain how my fists tightened.  How dare she make chocolate for him?  The stalker of all people?  Especially when she made it for me every year.  I didn't know what was going on.  But this needed to stop.   Now.  Having made my decision I stood, walking to the door, preparing myself to find her.

You never know what you want
And you never say what you mean
But I start to go insane
Every time that you look at me
You only hear half of what I say
And you're always showing up too late
And I know that I should say goodbye
But it's no use
Can't be with or without you
O Oh O Oh </i>

I scowled again, walking away from the set trying to avoid Tsuruga-san at all costs.  While walking the memory of what he did came back to me.  I had bumped into him, not paying attention of course and he was listening to music.  Probably his own that vain.... anyways.  He saw that box, apparently realizing that it was for that dirty beagle. And he pitched it under a car.  When I asked him why.  That conceited male just shrugged.  "Because he doesn't deserve it."  Was all he said.  But what bothered me the most, was what he meant by that.  Yes I hardened my heart and eyes....but something in his was telling me he didn't hate me as much as I thought he did.  Which to tell the truth...bothered me.  After years of making him chocolate...what gives him the right to tell me who I can make it for now?  He threw me away!  I don't think he really knows what's going on in his own head.

So how did you get here
Under my skin?
I swore that I'd never let you back in
Should have known better
Than trying to let you go
Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you
Is so addictive
We're falling together
You'd think that by now I'd know
Cause here we go go go again

It didn't take long until I got lost.  To tell the truth I didn't go to this building often.  But that didn't stop my objective.  I had to talk to her.  About what?  I didn't know. It was pretty ridiculous actually.  I generally didn't throw myself head first into things.  Aside from this trip to Tokyo. But that's not the point.  The point was, was I want her.  And I need Kyoko to realize that as well.  Not that she really will.  But for what it's worth...I'll try.  A sigh escaped my lips, growling angrily as I passed the same corridor for the third time.  "This is ridiculous."  I  tried to say, but it came out a growl, my hand slamming against the wall. "All I want to do is see her.  Is that so hard to understand?"  And then I heard it.  The soft voice behind me, tinged with cold.  "See who?"

Ohhh
And Again (And Again)
And Again (And Again)
And Again
I threw all of your stuff away
And I cleared you out of my head
And I tore you out of my heart
O Oh O Oh
O Oh O Oh

Turning a corner I stumbled upon the strangest sight.  Shotaro hitting the wall angrily.  walking closer, cautiously of course.  And then I heard what he said.  "All I want to do is see her.  Is that so hard to understand?"  I couldn't help myself.  Before I knew what I was doing, I was stepping into the open before him.  "See who?"  I asked quietly, looking over at him.  Several thoughts flashed through my head as to who.  The first one of course was Shoko.  But then, would he look so distraught over not seeing his manager?  One wouldn't think so right?  Surely he couldn't mean me?  The way his eyes looked when he claimed I couldn't make chocolate for that beagle... No.  I hardened myself from him.  I couldn't turn back now.  Especially after this. And then his voice snapped me out of my thoughts.  "Kyoko...."

So how did you get here
Under my skin?
I swore that I'd never let you back in
Should have known better
Than trying to let you go
Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you
Is so addictive
We're falling together

I couldn't help it.  Her name broke out from my mouth before I could stop it.  After looking at her...she had changed so much...there was no way that I could even pretend anymore.  There was no way that I could even think she was plain.  After all this, I realized, for the final time that I was in fact harboring feelings for her.  To tell the truth, that realization pissed me off a bit.  But I couldn't stop it now.  I took a few steps towards her.  That look Kyoko gave me.  She was sure of herself, yet there was a slight insecurity in her eyes.  I paused for a moment, and then stopped, my arms falling around her small frame.  I felt her tense as I pulled her closer, and then finally, she relaxed against me.  With a soft breath and about two heart beats later, she let her arms wrap back around me as well.  To tell the truth..it was nice to hold her.  Sure I had thought of it...but doing it was better...than I had imagined.

You'd think that by now I'd know
Cause here we go go go again
(Here We Go Again)
Here We Go Again
Should have known better
Than trying to let you go
Cause here we go go go again
Again (again) again and again and again
And again and again and again and again
and again and again and again and again and again

Seeing Shotaro like that was a little strange, especially when he began advancing towards me.  But standing firmly I realized that my grudge demon wasn't coming out.  And then there he was, his arms wrapping around me.  Of course I tensed, expecting ulterior motives, but yet...they never came.  And then, I relaxed.  It was everything I used to dream of.  Relaxing in his arms, I realized that this was why I always used to do everything for him.  Wrapping my arms around him, I realized that I would do it again if need be.  Looking up at him, I felt him lean closer, blushing softly as he pressed his lips to mine, pulling away softly.  Looking up at him, I began to say something, but he cut me off.  "So where's my chocolate Kyoko?  You make one for Beagle but not me?"   "EXCUSE ME?"

Ah well... so much for that.